Matilda

My mind has been swarming with a lot of "what ifs" lately.
"what if i was actually born with small eyes?"
"what if i was raised in a village with no WiFi?"
"what if i was taller?.. or just what if i was tall?"

At first i was ignoring them,
you know those "what if i don't hear my alarm tomorrow morning?" thoughts you have,
then you pass out, and you wake up one minute before your alarm is about to go off.
Phew.
Then it got way more serious, i'd be like "what if i bump into my crush on campus and i'm looking hella crusty?" and then it happened... that day, while i was looking crusty.
Not so much phew but,

at that moment i was sure of two things :
1) i had superpowers and,

2) i just didn't know how to use them yet.

Ha!

No but seriously,
at that moment i was sure of two things,
1) my thoughts are very powerful and,
2) woman's intuition is a real thing.

I remember in high school they made us watch "The Secret",
and even though that video was just very sensational,
and a bit far fetched,
the foundation of what those people were preaching,
kinda makes sense to me now that i'm older.

For those of you were lucky enough not to sit through 3 hours of "Life orientation"
(quotation marks intended),
you would need to know that "The Secret" is a self help book by Rhonda Byrne (It has been translated into 46 languages and has sold over 19 million copies worldwide),
and it basically preaches the power of good thinking.

You know,
 having such good mental health,
 that if you wished for something hard enough,
it can most definitely come true!
Whatever you've always wanted,
if you could just put your mind to it,
money, cars, clothes.. you name it! It's yours!

Now even 16 year old me couldn't resist being skeptical about this,
i felt like i had been wishing for stuff ever since i figured out that "wishing" was a "thing",
i'd never missed a fallen eyelash, wishbone, rainbow, same time same minute,
I have even wished on freaking shooting star,
and POOF!
 ......nothing.
But here this video was telling me that other people's wishes had been coming true,
and that maybe, actually definitely, i wasn't doing it right.

So this is why i'm sitting on the fence of believing in positive thinking, but also not believing that all it takes for you to get everything you've ever wanted is to think positively.

You have to match the positive thought with a positive action,
and this positive action has to be in conjunction with your positive thought
or there is no way that it can develop into the definitive positivity (new word, just accept it) that it should ignite in your life.
and furthermore,

i believe that watering and maintaining a garden everyday to keep it fruitful is just as vital as planting the seeds of the fruits that inhabit the garden.


That's my "secret".

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