Shonisani's Seeds

“She taught me that life goes on,  and that I had a choice.  To lament what I no longer had or be grateful for what remained.”  I've noticed something, I've noticed that people are trying really hard, to show people who they are through what they have, instead of just being who they are. I've noticed it and i'm sure you've noticed it too, it's not a new thing, it's actually become quite normal, i mean we all do it, i'm just not sure why. Surely the easiest and most efficient way to show people who you are.. .. is to be who you are. We have got it all wrong,  because we hide our gems, and instead we project our fear . Great.  How pleasant. I hate how something that was once so good and so pure, can become so damaged and despicable, within the blink of an eye. Our minds are so powerful, we really have the power to decide,  what ever it is we need to decide,  to keep moving. To keep going. It's on you,...

“If you make people think they're thinking, they'll love you; but if you really make them think, they'll hate you.”  ―  Harlan Ellison What i do not like, is how people can make you think that something you feel, isnt real. Isn't that crazier than telling people who "see things" that they're crazy??  (I mean like, why don't you see things. Like seriously. Think about it. Why?) Because now you're telling me, (and all those "crazy" people),  to go against our better judgment , something that has been built up,  and augmented to suit the very people that we have become. And yes i know,  we have to consider the "psychopaths",  (people who kill people for fun etc...) But because i do not believe in "othering" (or perpetuating such thinking),  i don't believe that "psychopaths etc...." are excluded from what i am about to say.  [if you (psychopath etc...),  are readin...

The other day my friend called me a "hopeless romantic"  and for the first time, i paused before i answered, to actually think about what i was going to say (shocking, i know!) and i said, " you know what, I'm the most hopeless romantic there ever was ". My idea of romance has nothing to do with the conventional ideal of a man wooing a woman, No, My idea of romance is more of a feeling , and not just any type of feeling, that feeling you get when you're dreaming that you're falling, and right before you hit the ground, you wake up  - that moment there, that feeling. When i love, my whole body reacts, My chest tightens up, My toes straighten out, The hair at the back of my neck stands And I start to feel the physical equivalent of  the word "happy". I get shivers down my spine. My mind literally expands, my thoughts overflow. My heart stops and I start to hear music, an untitled yet familiar melody ...

I hope you're happy, even if it can't be with me, i hope you're happy, even if it won't be with me, i hope you're happy,  i hope you are. I hope that you're happy as i love from a distance , from afar it seems our love was instant , i hope you forget me like a new born infant ,  forget me like that time, we'll call it an incident , forget me like that girl, we'll call her coincidence , you never met me,  just forget me, just, forget me. I hope that you're happy in your life to come , it's only natural to mourn what's gone , although it feels stolen , heart wholes still have wholes in , we thought we were chosen , that's when the hole closed in . I hope that you're happy, wherever you are , i remember the last time i saw you, the sunbeams in the car , i remember you told me you'd always love  me , you knew no matter what i'd always love you too, poor star crossed lovers , clic...