Shonisani's Seeds

Your soul seeps into mine, you are my evidence that God is divine . Your very presence causes mine to incline , only when you're not by my side, is when all my tears come together to cry. You're my beehive, home base to the deep honey cave that stores my love, home base to the intricate nerves you wake up, i just can't get enough. You my love,  you sit on your throne right above my love , you keep me tough , ready to fight any battle that comes my way, ready to " kill " anyone that tries to take you away , you're mine. I'll say it over and over again till i die , being loved by you gives me my ultimate high, even when you just say "Hi." , i remember why i'm alive, and every time you leave me, i recognize the pain of loss, normal people feel when a loved one dies. You're mine. I'll say it again and again and again, we were lovers , and then we became friends, ...

I want to learn how to be less impulsive, I don't know how many times I do or say something and then,  3 days later I'm laying in bed watching The Mindy Project and,  I think to myself : "Shoni WHY?!" How do things seem like such a mistake in hindsight but while it's happening nothing seems off? Being impulsive gets tricky, it really isn't as magical as the movies make it seem. Although, one time I bunked school impulsively to go to Cavendish (a mall in Cape Town) and I landed up seeing Keri Hilson. ( Of course this is before she dissed Beyoncé,  so I was really excited.) Impulsive people like to live by non ruley type rules like, "no regrets" ,  as to not regret anything done during an impulsive streak! So now when you, as an impulsive person, are regretting an impulsive act, the disappointment in yourself is monumental, because you really could've stayed at home. It's worse when you re...